Bella-Moon

It's been...a year since I've last been on and updated this? Anyways, here is all that has happened! Hold onto your hats, folks, it's going to be an interested ride; After my nana passed away, I went through a lot. I still am, but I'm handling it a little bit better than I was two years ago(yes, it has been TWO years :( ), I started drinking more, I started smoking, I even tried weed(and because it was mixed with a different drug I wasn't aware of, almost died in the process. I came out of it alive, but I was left with slight seizures, that eventually went away. I was pretty beaten up). I was turning into the wild girl. Got myself involved i

I'm trying to handle the one year mark anniversary that my nana has been gone this month, my little niece who didn't survive after birth, and a lot of other deaths to mourn. I feel like this whole losing the baby ordeal is pushing me and my sister apart further. I love my sister more than anything and would never want to hurt her let alone have her go through the pain she's going through. But I'm hurting as well. I can't walk into a store and pass the baby aisle without getting choked up and feeling like all self-control in my body has been rid of every ounce of me. And the fact that my nana passed away almost a year ago, hard to believe. I

I've been working late hours as a mentor and Co-ed that, it's keeping me from getting enough sleep and I end up waking up late during the day. This obviously cannot be good for my body. I hate those websites that tell you you have to change almost your whole lifesytle if your starting a family, oh I'm going to stay up late and continue working...I'll get sleep later, whether it being enough or not, least I'm getting sleep. Last night was stressful, I had to deal with a woman who was having relationship struggles. Me along with another mentor tried telling her what she should do, not do, what's healthy for her and what's not healthy. In the